I am not old

I Am Not Old...

"I am not old.. she said
I am rare
I am the standing ovation
at the end of the play
I am the retrospective
of my life
as art
I am the hours
connected like dots
into good sense
I am the fullness
of existing
you think I am waiting to die
but I am waiting to be found
I am a treasure
I am a map
these wrinkles are imprints
of my journey
ask me
anything.

~ Samantha Reynolds

Image: Power of Wisdom by Linda Apple

Gudrun cheered me up

Oh got a copy of the catalogue through the post and this cheered me up.. ohh when I get some decent funds or paid post or our WASPI £46,000 that the government owes us 1950s babies I will be seriously stocking up my wardrobe with the love and colour and wonderful designs... Gudrun Sjoden you can feel the love and passion in her creative styles.. and my eldest daughter getting intrigued by them too... the customers have a club on facebook and you feel part of a family.. all the designs look good on any age and shape. love love love

 ohhh could I do with a walk by the sea now 

Earth Angels

Grateful to my grand daughter and a neighbour keeping an eye on the girls while I was in hospital... but these sister cats are like earth angels they know when I am unwell an keep round me... but I wish I had had something on video to show you... the other day they were out on the wall and in the garden then they heard me have a fit of coughing..both came rushing in to see if I was OK and Lulu the more white than black one .. jumped on my knee and started to gentle paw massage my chest in the most loving an caring way... animals are much more higher souls that we give credit for.. 

Grand kids young women now

Wow found this photo in a sentimental box need to get a nice frame for this ..these two now young women and Olivia the youngest is now at college aiming to be a teacher.. Now we got Errin too and Sam my grandson. 

keep update with Women's voices to be heard

Been sent home with supplements to build me up.. Had a GP home visit yesterday and she says it will take time to get full strength back....it is weird you have an energy plateau then a sudden drop as if someone pulled the plug out... She was interested and intrigued with the campaign see link Women's Voices to be Heard and you will see the link to the petition Petition to improve DWP support for women but with the help of an activist friend I have been given some funds to get what I need to get well... So placed an order with NYR for more supplements and products to help me feel the love and heal.... plus ordered meals for weekend and next week with  Wiltshire Farm Foods so between my daughters getting me food in and this it will build up my strength soon.  

Home on journey of energy rebuild

Award Winning Skincare for a great gift

As you will have read I have been an emergency hospital admission for an overwhelming viral chest infection. I ordered the award winning skincare kit to help me feel the love and healing of the products.. My face had been looking drawn with the illness but now feels and looks so much better. The White Tea Facial Mist feels lovely when you have a temperature and feeling hot and flustered... so calming and refreshing. In the kit is the all time favourite of mine and many customers the Wild Rose Beauty Balm..  The Award wining Skincare kit is a great gift anytime but wow this is wonderful for any loved one as a patient... I strongly recommend this....Feel the love with me... 

Award Winning Skincare Kit  

Your Award Winning Skincare Kit contains:

• Wild Rose Beauty Balm (15g) – Made with antioxidant-rich wild rosehip seed oil, it can be used as an exfoliating cleanser with a muslin cloth or an intense moisture boost for naturally radiant skin.
• White Tea Facial Mist (8ml) – For a moment of calm refreshment, spritz on this gentle mist to soothe and rehydrate all skin types. This antioxidant-rich pick me up is perfect at any time of day.
• Beauty Sleep Concentrate (8ml) – A lightweight serum made with a smoothing tripeptide and calming essential oils. It supports your skin’s natural night time rejuvenation, so your skin feels replenished when you wake.
• White Tea Enriching Facial Mask (15g) – Once a week, indulge your skin and your senses with this detoxifying and antioxidant-rich facial mask. Nurturing yet cleansing, it restores skin’s natural moisture balance while drawing out impurities.

We've also popped a sachet of our Frankincense Intense™ Cream inside for an extra treat.

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Bliss in the hospital

🌺🌿I am in hospital recovering from a nasty chest infection that overwhelmed me... was admitted emergency via resus... But I am please to say I am responding to treatment..... But I have something to tell you... my daughter brought my NYR products in and the Geranium & Orange Shower gel was absolute bliss to use and the whole ward smelled beautiful...... Last night I did an eye mask with some to help me sleep and had a good night.... and today the lady in the next bed to me who is an amazing lady and is Dutch had no soap so she used the shower gel.... she loved it with her love of flowers and she came back all of a glow....You see NYR products are made with love... and you can feel this.... it is Shower with a hug.....
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Bed space

Well this is an experience of being the patient again when spent since 1978 being a nurse and midwife. Last time I was in Hillingdon was for my breast op and sepsis... But that was the point of this chest infection last Thursday I felt like the sepsis my body completely overwhelmed with infection and was starting going into shock.  My GP clicked into action got me nebulisers and rang medical team and ambulance.  The paramedics were brilliant and I  felt in safe hands while we blue light transferred to resus A/E.... The staff on duty were skilful and kind and some I have worked with so they were extra concerned it was me.  You can read more on the wider campaign issues on my Women's voices to be heard blog... and please sign my petition as all this is because I am on my low ebb with not eating good with benefits money breaks and not enough for cost of living.

Women's voices to be heard

But I am writing this blog post with the angle on the wards and bed space.  I have worked in many hospitals in the North of England in Leeds and Airedale.  Then worked in and around London.. I have also worked in the private arena.  
I have to say our local hospital like many hospitals needs a major upgrade. We are left with some old fashioned open wards with shared washing facilities and toilets and anyone needing a commode has only the fragile curtain between their personal privacy and the rest of the ward.  

There needs to space too between beds so folk do not feel on top of one another and the staff having to struggle giving cares in confined spaces....

I have to say the nursing staff on the ward where I am are full of love for their patients and their work with good clinical skills to make you feel in safe hands. Good nurses will shine in no matter the environment and resources available.  The sister has a good atmosphere of being organised with teams enjoying working for her and this is so important. It emits a caring healing space for patients to get well and rest.  Hospitals should be a healing sanctuary not a factory floor treating patients like parcels on a conveyor belt..... with government targets to be met it can cause a lot of pressure for throughput... but if you do not invest enough time with patient and allow for some recovery time... and if you do not get a good community care package together then patients come round into the system again - carousel patients... 

Working on wards with en suite single rooms gives some personal space and dignity for the patient.. or if you have two beds and en suite or four bed bays with en suite and masses of space it can help.... 

But being in communal space means you are at the mercy of what is happening to other patients... You may wish to be quiet but the others may have visitors or  be in pain or be complaining... There is an barrage of vibration coming from other patients situations and the logistics of their cares too... 

I have been so lucky with a lovely patient aside me and I feel privileged to have met her ... we get on really well.  But we are feeling the same it would be better if folk had personal space with a day room to mingle if desired and like on our post natal ward at Tommys a day room with information and space for patient teaching, support groups and empowerment.

The other point of being in an open ward is that you are on show if you want to sleep or just keep quiet.... I have cocooned myself with closed curtains at times of needing a sleep with busy ward of visitors.... 

We need a new hospital in Hillingdon as the tower is an eyesore in the borough and in need of repair.  There have been attempts to modify areas even a swish art filled new corridor from A/E to well not the wards but to other corridors that are quite frankly ugly with exposed pipes and wires...

It is vital to create a sacred healing space... and I feel the residents of the borough, the patients and the hard working caring staff need and deserve this... we have a lot of area to service and this includes cases from Heathrow airport... I am sure BAA would help to fund a new hospital and some of the local companies...

In the Nuffield hospital in Horsforth Leeds all the rooms had local business sponsors to generate the maintenance cost of the rooms and decor.  

Hillingdon is to expand its A/E but given that the A/E is a major portal of entry for the NHS an expansion must have the back up of ward and unit services.....

But where would a new hospital be... could the car park spaces now be rebuilt to units and with a plan for car park on top of building or underground... an engineer and architect issue.... Or does the NHS sell this land to be turned into flats and cash in on the off the plan sales from overseas.. use this revenue to shift to another site... My daughter was spotting some land near Stockley Park and this would be close to the M4 and M25.. for a trauma unit to be established.  At this point I must sing the praise of the London Air Ambulance that have high call outs for the Borough of Hillingdon so their cases will direct to the Royal London freeing up care in the local hospital.

Overall when we plan hospitals we need them to be a healing sanctuary with space to be and space for the staff to work in and cope with any emergency situation. 

So will we get a new hospital... 

Sabah el Noor

Sabah el noor good morning .. now my chest infection is getting better it makes me realise how ill I have been... But feeling all your prayers and thoughts... and surrounded by loving caring staff... My lovely Dutch lady in the next bed is impressive now.. lol I think since her Geranium & Orange shower yesterday ... she has been zipping around with her Zimmer frame..... as she says "I am the Flying Dutchlady now..."..hhhhhhhh Got another interesting stroke patient too.... that is an artist ... she has had some of her work exhibited in the Uxbridge library and won first prizes.... looking forward to seeing her work. Her stroke affected her right side but she is left handed so her dominant hand she still has the use of and can paint with.....but she is fascinating me... she can have short term memory ... yet can create pictures in her mind hold on to them to be able to put to canvas....

update I am ill in hospital

Loving care from staff

some improvement with the IV antiboitics and vitamins... got a lovely consultant and all the staff caring for me with love respect for me being the retired sister and a lot of darn good clinical skills to make me feel in safe hands...  I keep feeling as if getting better then have a massive drop in energy and the darn coughing and wheezing starts again.... thank goodness for nebulisers....

Thought you would like this photo that my daughter took on Easter Monday... she came with grand daughter and they had brought a princess cake with tiara for us to share with staff.... then my daughter realised I am in bed no 10... lool thought this fitting given all the political battles I am in ... 

So I am Lady Marjorie PM at no 10 on the frontline of the NHS.... with my laptop and bedside campaigning to get a better pathway of support for women.  
Good news about the CT lung scan at no clot and no sign of the dreaded big C... it is just a mean set of bugs a combined bacterial and virus.... the virus keeps sapping my energy... The catering staff have got some good meals in and eating 3 good meals a day as all citizens should be able too... you see had this overwhelming infection with at my lowest ebb.  I have asked my MP to write to the DWP and I have tweeted them as I have the 24 page work capability form to submit... but I cannot meet the deadline and in honesty I am NOT fit for work... when it is time to discharge may need some home visits....

Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!