The past 24 hours have been strange, painful, heart wrenching mind worrying, pensive time with dizziness despair amidst a quiet day of tidying the garden, making dinner for myself, learning Dutch and a neighbours grand daughter calling in. So why is it strange you ask... my mind has been full of the woes of war and what it means to have no contact with loved ones, people you care about and worry about when you know they are in adverse situations.
Of course I watched the "For Sama" film last night, that hung in my head and heart all day, then there was a TV drama "Burning world" set in Nazi WW2 .. it has made me think of women left behind in the days of men going to battle. Thought about my mum how much she would have worried for her first husband - in those days no text or messenger or social media just tuning in to BBC radio for news updates or coded messages, looking for letters but fearing telegrams... telegrams were not good news but of losses...It was not easy for mum too as the airstrikes were targeted up North close to where she lived by the Nazis as we had ammunition factories there... so it must have been a worry for her husband too if she and my brother was ok..... For mum she had some comfort and reassurance as her husband was batman for Montgomery so if that General was reported alive and well - her husband would be also. She had little time with her husband after he survived and returned from war as he died of cancer. Then my father came along in her life and married my mother and then I entered the world..... But I would grow up with my step brother away on National Service... and seeing my mother looking for airmail letters from him and worrying if no communication. When home on leave she would say to him "please I do not expect a long letter from you but just a letter with the words - I am ok mum don't worry was enough!"... Mothers, wives, lovers, close friends had to be strong when fellas were away in the days before text, social media, whats app..But even in the now of social media there can be breaks in connection or blocking or muted accounts so some loved one or someone you care about can not be contacted to be assured they are ok or for a social chat.... Then I am reflecting on older days and ancient times when men would be away for months and years.. with little messages coming back home - it is no wonder many a tapestry was made with focused time to help aid the torment of a loved one out of contact...
In among this torment and inner turmoil there can be a spiritual connection, a sense of knowing, a feeling that souls are connecting....but that is the message that keeps being brought to us in our Earthly form... we are all connected by the Universal law of being part of a Greater Energy that created us all...
So let us all pulsate love care and compassion through that energy connection then there will be no wars..!
